Long. Difficult. Discouraging. My Crohn’s journey has been all of this and more. But this week, I actually thanked God for my Crohn’s Disease.
Trust me, I know you’re thinking “what in the world?” right now and I get that. I was too at first. But I’ve been studying and praying a lot about issues in life. I’ve seen how being weak and having to depend on God’s grace has taught me to not be so much thinking that I could do it all myself. That’s my personality. Just tell me I can’t do something and I’ll prove to you that I can!
I came to the realization that the convenience and comforts of this life were far more important to me than I wanted to admit. I was so focused on having a “dream come true” life right here and now that I wasn’t really planning on the eternal life spoken of so much in the Bible.
Do I wish I get could get through a day without pain? You better believe it! No more fatigue, anemia induced hair loss or plaguing side symptoms of Crohn’s Disease? Of course! But I already have that promised to me. There are a lot of other folks out there that don’t have any hope whatsoever. They look at the crazy mixed up world around us and think this is all there is. And that’s a pretty pathetic outlook on life.
So I’m going to quit spending so much time praying for healing and understanding why I have to suffer with Crohn’s and focus instead on the fact that I know of a future without Crohn’s. I know of a future without death, suffering and pain. And it’s about time I shared this hope with others who need to hear it.
Pity party over. Time to spread some good news. This isn’t all there is. You can have more. It’s yours free because of something called amazing grace!
My little wilderness man really enjoyed this season of “Get Out Alive” with Bear Grylls. Yes, it was still television, but he loved learning about the respect for the wild and survival. At the end of each challenge when all the teams would gather together to find out which one Bear would choose to go home – Bear often spoke about positivity. Basically I got from it that if you have a nasty attitude while you are trying to survive in the wild, it would be like having one arm tied behind your back and asked to row across a lake.
Positivity came up again yesterday, as I checked my mother in for her a preventive procedure. The lady at the desk checking her in had a sign about always being blessed. I started a conversation with her and we all enjoyed our time together. Everyone should have that much fun checking in for something as painful as a mammogram!
This woman shared her experience of just that morning, feeling down on herself and her mind filling with all kinds of things that were horrible about herself. Out of nowhere, a woman walked up to her and said nice things about her and basically put all the bad thoughts to shame. Our new friend felt joy at the negativity being sent packing and the positivity filling its place. That experience would carry her through the day.
It is so easy to listen to the negative. It is so easy to sink into pity parties and loathing ourselves. It’s true that we may not be perfect, but God didn’t wait for us to be perfect before He died for our sins, so maybe we need to keep listening to what God has to say about us. His words are positive, full of love and compassion. Yes, there is correction and guidance, but it is always spoken with great love for us. If positivity can help you survive in the wild then positivity can help us survive in the wildness we face every day just by getting up in the morning. With God’s help, I aim to be more positive!